Part VI The Return
The Return
Turning Without Regression
Part VI of the Solomonic Consciousness Series: The final chapter. Not about staying awakened. About how to keep returning. The uncomfortable truth about consciousness.
Jilani Garraoui
Consciousness Facilitator & Author
Published: January 2026
1. The Myth You Just Bought: Permanent Awakening
You've read Parts I through V. You've understood the model. You've recognized your patterns. You've even had moments of sitting on your throne. You've felt the power of authentic presence.
And now you believe something dangerous:
You believe that consciousness, once gained, is permanent. That awareness, once achieved, doesn't leave. That authenticity, once accessed, becomes your baseline.
This is the most dangerous delusion of the spiritual/philosophical marketplace.
It's why people attend workshops and return to their old patterns within weeks. It's why they read transformational books and find themselves back where they started within months. It's why they have profound experiences and then spend years chasing the memory of that experience.
The truth is this: There is no permanent awakening. There is only the practice of returning.
There is no "once awakened, forever awakened." There is only returning.
2. The Fall Is Not Optional
Here's what actually happens:
You have a moment of clarity. You see through a pattern. You occupy your throne. You experience authentic presence. It feels like you've finally arrived.
Then something happens. You get tired. A situation triggers you. A familiar feeling arises. And without you noticing it clearly, you slip off the throne. The pattern recaptures you. The introjected voice starts speaking again. You're back in the valley.
It is not a sign that you're doing something wrong. It is the nature of consciousness. It oscillates. It cycles. It returns to automation when not actively maintained.
Most people treat the fall as shame. "I'm back to my old patterns. I've failed. The work didn't stick."
But the Solomonic way teaches something different: The fall is information. The fall is part of the practice. The fall is where the real work happens.
Because awareness is not about never falling. Awareness is about recognizing the fall while it's happening—or as soon as possible after—and returning to the throne.
The fall is not failure. It's where practice becomes real.
3. Three Levels of Return
Not all returns are equal. Understanding the levels helps you recognize when consciousness is actually working:
- The Immediate Return (Minutes): Something triggers you. Within seconds or minutes, you notice. "Oh, I just went unconscious." You pause. You ask yourself: Am I on my throne? And you return. This is the fastest level.
- The Delayed Return (Hours/Days): You don't notice until later. You've been run by a pattern for hours or days before recognition arrives. But then it does. You notice: "I've been captured." And you return. This is slower, but still powerful.
- The Structural Return (Months/Years): You don't notice the capture. You don't return immediately. But something in your life—a crisis, a relationship failure, a collapse—forces you to see. And you realize: "I've been asleep for months." The pain of the consequence brings you back. This is the slowest, most costly level.
All three are valid. All three are part of the practice. The work is not to shame yourself for the delayed returns. The work is to gradually develop the capacity for faster recognition.
Even this is not linear. You might be able to catch immediate returns for weeks, then suddenly find yourself in a delayed return that you don't notice for days. This is normal. This is the actual texture of consciousness work.
Immediate, delayed, structural. All valid. None are failure.
4. The Evening Review: The Core Practice
If there's a daily practice that embodies the Solomonic way, it's this: The Evening Review. Not complicated. Not mystical. But profound.
Each evening, spend 10-15 minutes with these five movements:
- Scanning: Review your day without judgment. When did you lose clarity? When did you become unconscious? When were you captured by patterns, voices, or reflexes?
- Identifying: Notice specifically what happened. "In the morning meeting, I was run by the achievement pattern." "At 3pm, my parent's voice was speaking through me." Be precise.
- Feeling: This is crucial and often skipped. Feel the emotion of each moment. Don't judge it. Don't fix it. Just feel it. The sadness of unconsciousness. The frustration of being captured. The disappointment of betraying yourself.
- Understanding Triggers: Without analyzing, notice: What triggered each fall? Was it exhaustion? A specific person? A particular kind of situation?
- Acknowledging Return: Recognize that even though you fell, you're now aware. You're now back on the throne, reviewing. The return itself is the practice.
This practice is transformative not because it fixes you, but because it keeps consciousness alive. Each evening review is a return. Each recognition of falling is a return. Each acceptance of the cycle is a return.
Scan, identify, feel, understand, acknowledge. Each night, practice returning.
5. The Muscle of Return: Building Resilience
There's a physical metaphor here that's actually neurologically accurate: Returning is a muscle.
The first time you notice you've fallen and you return, it takes effort. It feels strange. You're learning the movement.
The second time, it's slightly easier. The neurological pathway is slightly more established.
The hundredth time, it's becoming natural. You notice the fall and return almost automatically—except it's not automatic in the bad sense. It's conscious automaticity. Your brain has literally rewired to recognize and respond more quickly.
Weeks 1-4 (Early Practice): Slow returns, frequent unconsciousness. You notice days after falling.
Months 3-6 (Integration): Returns are faster. You notice within hours. The muscle is developing.
Year 1+ (Maturation): Immediate returns become more common. Falls are shorter. The muscle is strengthened. But you still fall. You still need to practice.
The resilience is not about never falling. It's about falling less deeply and returning more quickly. This is the actual trajectory of consciousness development. Not transcendence. Not permanent awakening. But building the muscle of awareness.
Consciousness is a muscle. Practice strengthens it. Falls are part of the training.
6. Prevention Is Not Perfection
As you develop the muscle of return, you might start to notice patterns of falling. Certain situations trigger you reliably. Certain times of day you're more vulnerable. Certain people activate specific patterns consistently.
Once you see these patterns clearly, something interesting happens: Prevention becomes possible.
But prevention is not about never falling.
You know that Tuesday mornings you're usually captured by the achievement pattern because you're tired and anxious about the week. So on Tuesday morning, you practice extra consciousness. You review the evening before. You set an intention to notice when the pattern activates.
You know that your father's voice gets activated in specific conversations. So you prepare before those conversations. You remind yourself: "This voice is not mine."
This is not suppression. This is not willpower. This is consciousness being applied strategically.
Prevention doesn't mean you never fall into those situations. It means you fall less often, and when you do, you recognize it faster.
And this is worth something. This matters. This is real development.
Prevention isn't perfection. It's consciousness applied strategically.
7. The Felt Sense of the Throne: How You Know You're There
At some point in this practice, you'll need a way to know when you're actually on the throne versus when you're fooling yourself into thinking you are.
The key is the felt sense. Not intellectual understanding. Not a spiritual experience. But a specific quality of presence that you learn to recognize in your body and nervous system.
When you're on the throne, these things are true:
- You have space between stimulus and response. Something happens and you're not immediately reactive. There's a pause. A choice point.
- Your body feels grounded. Not tense with effort, but settled. Present. Capable of sensing what's actually happening.
- Your thinking is clear but not harsh. You can see your patterns without identifying with them. You can see the voices without believing them.
- You feel responsible. Not guilty, not ashamed. But responsible. This is my consciousness. This is my choice.
- There's a kind of okayness underneath everything. Not happiness. But a fundamental okayness with what's actually true.
When you're captured, these are true:
- Reactivity. You respond immediately without a choice point. The pattern is running you.
- Tension or numbness in the body. You're either braced against something or disconnected.
- Circular or harsh thinking. Your mind is caught in loops. Self-judgment is present.
- Victimhood. Things are happening to you. You have no real choice.
- Anxiety or dread underneath everything. Even if you're functioning, there's a low-level sense that something is wrong.
Learn to recognize these felt senses in yourself. This is the most reliable indicator of whether you're on the throne or not. Not your thoughts about whether you're conscious. But the actual felt quality of your nervous system.
You know the throne by its felt sense: clarity, groundedness, choice, responsibility, okayness.
8. The Return Itself Is the Path
This is the final, dangerous truth: There is no destination in this work. There is only direction.
You are not working toward the day when you're permanently awakened, permanently on your throne, permanently conscious. That day doesn't come. That's not how consciousness works.
What happens instead is this: The practice of returning becomes your life. The recognition of falling becomes natural. The evening review becomes something you do not because you should, but because it makes sense. Like brushing your teeth. Like eating when you're hungry.
The return itself becomes the practice. The practice itself becomes the path. The path itself is the destination.
This is the actual, hardcore truth about consciousness. It's not something you achieve and then rest in. It's something you practice. Over and over. For the rest of your life.
And this is not a problem. This is freedom.
Because the moment you stop expecting permanent awakening, you're free to actually practice consciousness. The moment you accept the inevitability of falling, you're free to focus on returning. The moment you understand that this is lifelong work, you stop waiting for some future moment when you can finally rest.
You can rest now. In the return itself. In the practice of recognizing. In the simple act of turning back to the throne, over and over, each time you remember you've left it.
No permanent awakening. No final destination. Only the eternal return. And that's enough.
9. The Series Closes, But the Work Continues
You've journeyed through the Solomonic Consciousness Series. You've learned the model. You've understood the mechanisms. You've seen the obstacles and the pathways.
But the reading is complete, and the work is just beginning.
You cannot read your way to consciousness. You cannot understand your way to authenticity. You cannot think your way to sovereignty.
These come only through practice. Through the evening review, night after night. Through the recognition of falling, again and again. Through the invitation to return, moment after moment.
Not the completion of the series. But the completion of preparation. You now understand what consciousness work actually is. You now have the map. But the territory is yours to explore.
Every time you notice you've been captured and you return to the throne, that's the series continuing. Every evening review is a continuation of this work. Every recognition that you've fallen unconscious is a continuation of the path.
The practice never ends. And that is exactly as it should be.
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Part VI: The Return
🎯 The Series Is Complete
You have journeyed through the full arc of the Solomonic Consciousness Series. From understanding the self, to recognizing patterns, to engaging awareness, to working with horses, to reclaiming authority, to practicing return. The reading is complete. The work is just beginning. Go practice the return. Every evening. Every moment you remember. The practice never ends—and that's exactly as it should be.
© 2026 Jilani Garraoui. Solomonic Consciousness Series. All rights reserved.